| I am Praying... |
[Apr. 23rd, 2008|11:46 pm] |
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| | Janet Jackson - Never Letchu Go | ] |
So I got a call from my mom today that my dad had a heart attack last night. He is doing good but they said that he has to have an Quadrople bypass. They said he can't get anymore stints in his heart and that this is what he has to do. Tomorrow morning, he will have this done. And the insurance and medicaid will cover this and the surgen is the best for the job.
I am optimistic that he will do fine and I prayed a few times today and will continue to. Keep him and our family in your prayers. Even though me and him never had a close relationship and had our issues which I will not go into now, he is my dad and I want the best for him.
I am going home, even though I have to talk to my supervisor when she gets in tomorrow morning but the shift supervisor said that it shouldn't be a problem. She said that I would probably get an unpaid leave of absence and it would not add more negative hours. I get paid time off and I have to earn time that I take off from each check. I am at .25 negative paid time off. So by the next check, I will be above the zero. Mom said she would try to help me out on money for the time that I would take off. I am optimistic that things will work out though.
Anyways, I will keep you guys posted on his progress and I miss you guys! HUGZ! |
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| Ipod into the future... |
[Feb. 26th, 2008|11:52 pm] |
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| | optimistic | ] |
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| | Dee-Lite - Groove is in the Heart | ] |
Well, James has finally sold out...OK just kidding. my MP3 player has crapped out and I had to get a new one, so I shelled out 90 something dollars and got an 80GB Ipod. Atleast its an industry standard and might be covered more but we'll see. But its 80GB of music, videos, and mayhem! :) But I need to learn how to covert video that I have to play on my Ipod that is compatible to play on an Ipod. Any Suggestions?
In other news, I am at 225 pds, so I am happy that I weigh that much. Maybe I can finally get into shape. I know I am not gonna be the perfect body but I like that I am starting to lose weight and it encourages me to get into shape.
Work is still the same but I applied for WSIL for a cameraperson position, so I am trying to call them every week to show I am interested and hopefully they will relieze I could be a good addition there.
I miss you all and hope to get to see you all when I can. Hugz! I Love You! I am off to relax. Laterz!
Edit: I will post weight loss photos soon! :) |
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| It's been a month and I got the Fuckin cold again... |
[Nov. 17th, 2007|06:26 pm] |
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| |  chipper | ] |
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| | Madonna - Papa Don't Preach (RIT Tour) | ] |
Hey people...Missed you! Me and Jack celabrated 2 years together on Thursday. Wow, I can't believe its been that long. I mean it still seems like we meet recently. But we are in Love and still together, which is the point.
We went to St. Loius last weekend. I worked Tues. and Wed. to get Fri. and Sat. off last weekend and this Tues. for last Sun. off. It was fun and relaxing. No cooking or cleaning and we stayed at the Crowne Plaza on the Riverfront. I mean we barely had money left when we got back but it was worth it. We went to this gay bar for Hairy bear men called JJ's Clubhouse, which we have been there before, and danced with friends of ours and meet some new people. It was very fun. We even went on the free Budweiser tour. It's the tour of the St. Louis factory where they make Budweiser and all their other beers. We got 3 free samples, one before we walked around. It was trying to match Miller Chill but we didn't like it. We saw the Klydesdales and their stables, which had this cute Dalmation guarding the stable from its own separate area. Then we saw the different sections where the beer gets made and mixed, pasturized, and labeled. After the tour, we had the other 2 free samples in the hospitality room with free pretzels. All and all, It was a fantastic weekend and I wished we can do it again.
Of course, I had to work on Monday and ended up getting another fucking cold. I was coughing so much on Tues. night, only time they could schedule my make up day, my chest was sore. I am not coughing as much but still have it. I am just gonna have a mask like Michael Jackson because I understand now why he wore it...Because too many FUCKIN PEOPLE ARE SICK.
Other than that, nothing else. I hope things go better for everyone, including you Morgs! HUGZ! I will update more when it happens.
P.S. - Some reason GJ didn't list your posts from Oct. 17 on until this past Sun. Including, the Halloween posts you guys did. I have no clue why that happened. Any ideas? |
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| Its looking up...Kinda |
[Oct. 17th, 2007|10:28 pm] |
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| |  Bad Cold-ish | ] |
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| | Jack playing Halo 3 (Cool Looking but I want my Jack back) | ] |
I am better since last week...in the emotional sense. I caught a bad cold that gave me larghitus and congestion and drainage in the syneses. I am taking $93 worth of meds. Damn. But hopefully it will go away soon. I got to see my family, including Rigby and My Mom. I miss them alot but now it hasn't been a year since seeing them. My grandparents are good considering their sister-in-laws death but my gramps had to go to the emergency room on Friday night, but released that night. I guess it was something with his ribs or something but they gave him an inhaler and he got a good night's rest. I miss My family but I know I will get to see them again and will make sure it's not almost a year this time. Anyways, I Love You Guys and Thanks Again for the Condolences and Well Wishes. Jack says HI! Off to Rest and watch DVD's in bed. HUGZ! |
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| Bad news again... |
[Oct. 8th, 2007|06:39 pm] |
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| |  sad | ] |
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| | Accoring tp Jim in the living room | ] |
My aunt died sometime last night and I found out today. I wont be online for a few days and will be out of town until Sat night. Wow, this weekend sucked except for hanging with Drew. My birthday was fun though. I Love You Guys and Thanks in advance for your support and wishes. I am off. Laterz! |
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| One more day til my Birthday... |
[Oct. 4th, 2007|12:33 am] |
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| |  excited | ] |
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| | Doctor Detroit on DVD | ] |
Hey Peps! I can't believe I am turning 30 tomorrow! But I don't feel that old. I feel younger than 30! Anyways, I Love You All! Laterz! |
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| I feel better! |
[Sep. 27th, 2007|12:35 am] |
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| |  happy | ] |
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| | Janet Jackson - ICON performance | ] |
Granted I am still at CCS and it sucks, I feel better. Monday is a long story but this post is to say I feel good. I talked to my mom and wasn't too tired to really listen or talk coherently. And I wasn't depressed when I got off the phone because I was homesick and missed her. Plus, I am seeing that I can be non-obcessive compulsive when happy or atleast deal with it better when happy. The point is I Love You All, Thanks for being great friends, its a blessing to have you. And I feel better! Like Ice Cube said "Today is a Good Day"! HUGZ :) |
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| Here's News... |
[Sep. 14th, 2007|06:48 pm] |
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| |  disappointed but optamistic | ] |
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| | Kate & Allie | ] |
After the second interview at WSIL on Monday, I called today to see if next week was fine to call back. The producer who I talked to said that they hired someone else because they had alittle more experience. I know it sucks but I feel bad about not getting away from this job I am at now. Maybe I can get a job somewhere else. It sucks but I know I have God and my friends support.
Good News is CCS deposited, most of the money they owe me for the 3 days they fucked me on. I say most because I am not sure if the money from the meeting is on this check. But, it's good none the less. Hugz and I Love You Guys! I hope things get better for you guys and have fun in Vegas, Brit! I am off to play video games and wait for Jack for supper! |
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| BULLSHIT continues... |
[Sep. 9th, 2007|07:41 pm] |
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| |  FUCKIN FURIOUS | ] |
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| | My ANGER BUILDING | ] |
Just got off from work, even though I was supposed to get of at 4pm. The 4pm night shift didn't come in or call in so I had to stay til 7pm and I AM ANGRY! I am sick of this complete and utter BULLSHIT and hope I get the job at WSIL. I am SO FUCKIN TIRED OF BEING FUCKED WITH! They wanna keep my ass, they better FUCKIN treat me right or I AM LEAVING REGARDLESS what happens with WSIL. COCKSUCKIN FUCKEN! |
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| They Fucked My check up again... |
[Sep. 7th, 2007|04:37 pm] |
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| |  pissed off | ] |
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| | My Pissed Off Mood | ] |
I just found out from checking my account online that CCS fucked my check up again. That's the second time in the last two weeks. I need this money and if they expect me to work harder than they better treat me with respect and give me the money they were supposed to. This IS COMPLETE B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T. I am sick and tired of them treating me this way. I hope I get that job because I sick of this.
By the way, the guy from WSIL said call back on Tuesday because he still hasn't decided yet. So we'll see! *Crosses fingers* |
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| Still Waiting... |
[Sep. 6th, 2007|10:14 pm] |
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| |  bored | ] |
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| | Jack watching football in the living room | ] |
I am still waiting to hear from WSIL. I called twice a day since Wednesday but the guy who is hiring has been in a meeting the times I've called. I will call after work tomorrow.
Other than that things are cool. Got to hang out with my friend Eric fom Theater class Fall 05. We talked and had a couple drinks at Hanger 9, a pub and small concert place. I ran into a couple there too. Eric asked me to do a small part in an episode of his show for SPC-TV. I will play a priest. It should be and I am fulfilling my creative side that I have not been able to show. Yibble's palm reading on the train ride after Brit's wedding sprung to mind when I toke the part. I need to do some creative shit that I haven't gotten to explore since Eidolon ended and the real world beckoned. I need to write my TV show that I have been thinking about. I would particpate in Quatrin but I am not sure if I'd get the time off to do it or do it a justice.
I am off to chill before bed. I hate my job but who doesn't. Anyways, Hugz to all and I will keep you posted on what happens with WSIL. |
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| Better than the last time.... |
[Aug. 30th, 2007|02:48 pm] |
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| |  giddy | ] |
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| | Janet Jackson - Pleasure Principle (12" remix) | ] |
Well, I am doing better since the last post. Although, the next weekend after that post, I was assulted at work by a participant. That's right...twice in the past 3 months. He wanted me to be his bitch and pour him a drink. I prompted him to do it himself because he was capable of doing it himself. After refusing twice and grabbing for the narrative book that they aren't supposed to see, he went apeshit and punched me in the jaw, back of the head, and scratched me on the neck. I was so pissed that I walked out without clocking out and almost quit when I told my boss. After much Curse-infused venting and talks with my friend at work and Jack, I decided to stay there til I found another job. I made sure as Hell I was moved to a different house. Things are cool now. I still want a different job.
I applied to different places and had an interview at WSIL for the part-time Asscoiate Producer position. I did pretty good even though I was nervous but I know I can do this job. Maybe not with the same equipment but have done the parts of the job at ICC A/V and SPC-TV. During the interview, I ran into Neil Cappetta, who still works there and he gave me a tour. He is a Director of the Morning show and he gave me a tour. So, we'll see what happens.
Just got over a bad cold and a friend moving to Reno plus the housework backed up from my sickness, so now I get to relax. YAY! I am off for more relaxing! Hugz!
P.S. When is a good time to call anyone of you? Schedules might have changed, so just wanted to make sure. |
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| GRRRRRRRRRROU#WERU(HHHRRRRRRRRRRRR! |
[Jul. 27th, 2007|05:10 pm] |
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| | pissed off | ] |
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| | my anger inside | ] |
Hey People. Don't mean to start my first original post in months to be about bitching but I am about ready to quit my FUCKING job. This is the second time in a week I have been alone working in the residence for more than a few minutes. I was alone, trying to get my FUCKIN paperwork done and keep an eye on 6 participants (Brain Injury clients) at the same time for an hour an a half. And I got off an hour late. Plus, this sunday...You guessed it...I am going to be the only one working the dayshift at this other house with 3 clients. One is in a wheelchair and needs help transfering the the FUCKIN toilet, the other needs constant supervision, and the last one has fits when she doesn't get her way. I hope they FUCKIN realize that no house work is FUCKIN going to get done.
If they don't watch it, I will FUCKIN leave them high and dry and SUCK their FUCKIN faces off! I am going to try to do 2 applications a day so hopefully something will FUCKIN come up because I can't take this BULLSHIT any-FUCKIN-more! I Love You All and Thanks in advance for your support. Hopefully the next time I post, I will be in a better FUCKIN mood and with a new job. |
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| Swiped from Yibbs, Morgan, Drew...many people |
[May. 3rd, 2007|08:49 pm] |
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| |  curious | ] |
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| | The Unit (Jack and Jaime watching it in LR) | ] |
Comment, and I'll:
1 - Tell you why I friended you.
2 - Associate you with a song/film.
3 - Tell a random fact about you.
4 - Tell a first memory about you.
5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 - Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
8 - In return, you must spread this disease in your own journal. |
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| This is what I got.......Hmmmmmmmmmm.... |
[Apr. 25th, 2007|01:27 am] |
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| |  hot | ] |
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| | Fan in bedroom blowing | ] |
Which Character from The Gift Bearer are You?
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| Shit for a Day... |
[Apr. 1st, 2007|10:14 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
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| | Give Me Novacaine - Green Day | ] |
Hey people! Sorry that I haven't posted in a long while. Everything is going pretty good at work. It sucked for a while because the residence I worked at closed down and they moved our participants and most of us staff across town to another group of residences. It was tough at first and I was bounced from house to house, only being at each particular house for a couple days at a time. I know my particpants better and can try to prompt them better. But how can I do that when they have me at a different house every two days. The particpants I know are at Creekside, which is kinda how Townhouse was. They are not in wheelchairs and I can focus on them better because they are higher functioning. Townhouse was supposed to be temporary closed for more people to be moved there and renovations to be made. But it seems like more and more it might be longer than I thought. This past Friday was the first time that I have been there for an entended period of time. I am on the schedule there until next Sat but I hope I get to be scheduled there more. How can I get to know or better know participants and build a repoure if I keep working at a different residences every two fuckin days. But like I said, it is getting better. I have been at CCS for almost 5 months but hopefully something in Radio/TV will turn up.
More shittyness...My friend Kate moved back to Champaign/Urbana this past Wednesday. I am still trying to cope with it. It's not the same to go over there now and not see the 2 cats running around and seeing her smiling face in person. I still have three friends that live there and will go over there still. But it's not the same. It's like there is a void now. And the bad thing is, it's not just there. I can feel the void at my place too because I was so close to her and she is one of my best friends. Now I can't just walk over there and see her smiling face or hug her. We can't watch movies together. It really pisses me off that I can't hang out with her anymore. Unless I go to Champaign but I can't do that all the time. And Yes I would visit you too Yibbs. I think she might know you or somehow. I am just depressed about this.
I hate having this meloncoly feeling all the sudden. I mean life does stuff like this to you but Fuckin A...Let me have more than a few days of happyness before more shit happens. Plus, I am worrying about bills. Granted my next check will come in and me and Jack will be fine, but missing the last credit card payment and having to pay double on the 22nd this month really scared me. I will be fine with the money and its not as bad as I am thinking or freaking out in my case.
Things will get better. Money things will be fine, I will still call Kate and visit her when I can, I will get a better job and things may improve at my current one. I just wished things would Fuckin not happen all at once. Plus, I feel bad that I am posting all the bad shit that has been happening recently to me and you guys have even worse things happening to you. But I know you guys are here with me and I am here for you. I Love You guys so fuckin much and thank you for reading this long rant of shittyness. I hope things will get better for you guys. Hopefully the next post will be soon and alot happier. :) |
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| I am alive..... |
[Mar. 16th, 2007|05:15 pm] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
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| | Star Wars Lego Wars 2 music (Jack is playing game) | ] |
Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. I just wanted to say hi and stuff. I will update but I am going to shower and relax, so prob not today. I don't wanna make any promises. Anyways, I Love You All and Hugz! |
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| Merry Christmas To All... |
[Dec. 25th, 2006|08:40 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
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| | Jack playing Video Games in Living Room | ] |
Just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, even though I will update by then. I PROMISE! ;) HUGZ! |
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| Sane Again... |
[Nov. 11th, 2006|07:34 pm] |
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| |  accomplished and sane | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Eurythmics - I Saved the World Today | ] |
YAY! So I made it through the 1st week of training. Next week I will be training in the residence. So YAY!
I got my Zoluft meds. I was without them for almost a week and it was not fun. I think I got side effects from the withdrawl. It was a Neck Pain sprain kinda thing or something. It is weird to explain. Long story short, (Too Late!), I didn't have a job til recently, couldn't see the Psych. back home because our car was broken, I wanted to be self-relient and not borrow money from my mom to go back to see him, who would only give me the rest of the free meds from the company til I saw him. I couldn't get in down here til after Jan at one clinic and the other I had to wait til Nov. 29th. I had to be insistant and say I have been off my meds for a few days and I have a job now and I don't wanna get fired because of my lack of brain workage...or something like that. After a couple days of calling there, I finally got to explain to the nurse back home yesterday what was happening and I have my meds now. Generic, still works, and Cheap. My neck feels better by the way. Anyways, I will update about the stuff I promised to post last time later. HUGZ! :)
Good Luck with the tests Morgs and I hope they can get you into surgery during the break! Get Well Hugz! |
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| YAY!...I have a job now! |
[Nov. 6th, 2006|05:43 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
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| | Scarface video game music | ] |
I know its been awhile, just tryin to get out of the house and stay sane. But I got hired at CCS (Center for Comprehensive Services) last monday. I had the interview the week before and it went well. I didn't expect them to call back after a couple months after applying. I was just about to apply there again when they called.
I train this week and then train at one of the residences in Carbondale. Its $7 an hour and benefits, even though I am part-time and may not get as much and get it soon.
I am there for now til I find something TV wise, like WSIL but for now its a job so I am happy! YAY!
More details later and I will post about B-day/Halloween/Drew and Mom Visits later. Hugz! |
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